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For the many thoughts that come and go unannounced and the ones which refuse to budge out of my head…
How will you react when your life is on good side, you have a good job, a person with whom you are in a relationship and everything is perfectly fine, and the next day you woke up, the doctor told you that you have cancer and the odds of living is 50/50?
Inspired by a true story, 50/50 is an original story about friendship, love, survival and finding humor in unlikely places – drawing its emotional core from the writer’s own experience with cancer and reminding us that friendship and love, no matter what bizarre turns they take, are the greatest healers.
Watching this movie makes me realize how fragile the difference is between being here one day and gone the next. It does such a fine job capturing the realness of the downs of something so dire as cancer as it also relays the humor and silliness of the everyday ups (like getting a new dog and finding a new friendship). The not so everyday and the everyday live in the same realm after all.
I especially like the end of the movie when Katie asks, “What now?”. That pretty well sums up the theme of this amazing little gem. You know, like maybe when you’re trying to decide whether or not to get in or out of that relationship, or job, or city, or apartment, and you do assume that something will follow…well then compare it with the experience of 27 year old Adam (played skillfully by Joseph Gordon-Levitt ❤) who has to contemplate a world where there might be nothing coming after “what now.” Really an inconceivable state of affairs to most people, certainly to a twenty-something…like me…. :p
I’ve learned that things change, people change, and it doesn’t mean you forget the past or try to cover it up. It simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn’t mean giving up. It means accepting that some things weren’t meant to be… source unknown
“What were you thinking Irene!?” – Ayin
That was my friend’s first comment when I told her that I’m going to run a full marathon – 42.195 km at the end of the year. Hahaa..rather amusing to me, yes 🙂 To be frank to her, I don’t even know how I am going to make it too. I am totally a beginning runner! Never in my point of life have I run further than 10k, let alone half marathon and look where I caught myself now, breaking my leg (NOT literally please..) to finish a FULL marathon. Ouch! When I signed up for the race, I don’t have a single agenda to run, I don’t know the appropriate clothes or shoes to wear, I have no idea what the diet and nutritions for runners are. I am a newbie!!!
Yet…I still signed up. Am I crazy or what? 😀
I know I have no experience of running marathon at all…BUT I have this very strong will to finish the race (sort of fulfilling a long-delayed goal). Often times people will ask me, what are my reasons to run the miles? And I will tell them, there’s not really a reason, it’s just the andrenalin when you start, and the feeling when you cross that finish line, and know that you are a winner no matter what place you got.
I came across an article that nicely articulates this. The excerpt below was originally published in the spring 2011 issue of The Trail magazine, a supplement publication I get from Runner’s World. The article was written by Shannon Farar-Griefer, 49, who is a mother of three kids and started running in 1997. Since then she has completed 25 ULTRAMARATHONS – which is running 100 miles straight through. Now to me – running 100 miles is crazy. So I thought it might be worth reading her justification for such supreme lunacy.
With an impending birthday on my mind, I spent some quiet time this evening reflecting on my recent past. And I’ve come to realize that my 20’s taught me a lot about life. So, I figured I’d share a few lessons I’ve learned along the way.
My wish ….
……glad that the exam’s over…… but the dread of waiting for the result can really, literally drives me nuts!
Being able to pass is really, good enough… just imagine a half-year worth of studying to fit into 3 papers, sounds pretty gruesome, doesn’t it? Yeah, chose this path, so I’m in no place to complain, but still…
McKenzie: [drunk] So do you have a boyfriend?
Summer: No.
McKenzie: Why not?
Summer: Because I don’t want one.
McKenzie: Come on; I don’t believe that.
Summer: You don’t believe that a woman could enjoy being free and independent?
McKenzie: Are you a lesbian?
Summer: [laughing] No I’m not a lesbian. I just, don’t feel comfortable being anyone’s girlfriend. I don’t actually feel comfortable being anyone’s anything.
McKenzie: I don’t know what you’re talking about.
Summer: Really?
McKenzie: Nope.
Summer: Ok, let me break it down for you–
McKenzie: Break it down!
Summer: Ok. I, like being on my own. I think relationships are messy and people’s feelings get hurt. Who needs it? We’re young, we live in one of the most beautiful cities in the world; might as well have fun while we can and, save the serious stuff for later.
McKenzie: You’re a dude. [to Tom] She’s a dude!
In the end Mckenzie and Summer hooked up and finally, she become someone else’s anything. Guess that she’s really the dude….
Such an encouraging message from a beloved lecturer sent on the exam day 🙂
I heart her!!! ❤
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Dear Irene
Today is the big day and I imagine you’re feeling a little scared!
But don’t be. You are obviously highly intelligent, committed and smart to have got this far and you should be confident in your ability to pass this paper. You know and understand much more than you think. Believe in yourself and you’ll be successful.
On the day of the exam, have a good and healthy breakfast. Don’t try to cram in too much at this stage. You already know a lot. Have an early lunch (remember – fish is good for the brains!) and get to the exam centre in plenty of time. Find a quiet spot to calm yourself and remind yourself how well you’re going to do in this exam.
When you open the exam paper:
Please try to present your answer as neatly as possible, with a line between each point, to make it easy for the marker to read what you’ve written and give you the marks you deserve.
I have every confidence that you can pass this paper, will be finishing ACCA and graduating soon and will go on to have a successful, rewarding and well-paid career.
Although I’ll be in Australia by then I’ll be thinking of you on results day, so please e-mail me on connieacca@yahoo.com.sg to let me know how you get on.
Best wishes for the exam,
Connie
It took me almost 2 weeks to finally finished reading Eckhart Tolle’s popular book, The Power of NOW. Fiuh…
At first glance, this book seems like just another book in a growing genre of books full of tips on how to be more mindful and awake in our daily life, but Tolle’s clear writing and the obvious depth of his experience and insight set it apart!!
While difficult to read and comprehend at times, The Power of NOW is without a doubt a remarkable book. Because spiritual enlightenment can be difficult to understand, using FAQ format throughout the book, Tolle weaves his words and focuses on answering questions from others throughout the book. I found this very useful and it helped me to have a clearer understanding of his ideas.
The primary principle in the book revolves around the concept of “being fully present.” Or, in other words, “living in the NOW.”
“Realize deeply that the present moment is all you ever have. Make the Now the primary focus of your life. Whereas before you dwelt in time and paid brief visits to the Now, have your dwelling place in the Now and pay brief visits to past and future when required to deal with the practical aspects of your life situation. Always say “yes” to the present moment. What could be more futile, more insane, than to create inner resistance to something that already is? What could be more insane than to oppose life itself, which is now and always now? Surrender to what is. Say “yes to life — and see how life suddenly starts working for you rather than against you”
Tolle talks about how people are constantly thinking compulsively throughout their day-to-day lives. That we are constantly preoccupied with looking both backwards and forwards. We focus on the past because this is what gives us our sense of identity, and what has led us to the life circumstances that we currently face. And we focus on the future because this is where all our dreams, hopes and fears will play out.
“Many people are so imprisoned in their minds that the beauty of nature does not really exist for them. They might say, “What a pretty flower,” but that’s just a mechanical mental labeling. Because they are not still, not present, they don’t truly see the flower, don’t feel its essence, its holiness — just as they don’t know themselves, don’t feel their own essence, their own holiness.”
Most of us are familiar with the mantra that ‘It is the journey that counts, not the destination‘, but Tolle puts this into a genuinely meaningful and practical context. By allowing our ‘mind self’ to be caught up in dreams of how our life will be better at some time in the future – if only we can win the lottery, get that better job or house, move to that other place, or find that special relationship, we yearn for external pleasures that, even if we gain them, will bring only temporary fulfilment – followed by a thirst for more, or an equal potential for emotional pain because things we have gained can just as easily be lost or taken away.
By contrast, he emphasises that real joy comes from within, from just ‘being’ in the Now, and from recognizing the simple beauty of all other forms, and our underlying unity with them. Tolle accepts that there is nothing wrong with planning for the future, or even hoping to build on or improve your life situation. But the trick is not to pin all your hopes on the future, and to obsess about it to the extent that you spend your whole life thinking about it and missing out on the Now, and just being. And you must be prepared for your plans to go wrong, or for the fact that success is nearly always balanced out by failure.
Moreover, you can concentrate on the Now by being totally engaged in the current activity you are performing as part of your plan for a better future. Give it your full attention, and perform it as something worthwhile in itself, with no thought for the desired outcome. This is the path of inner peace and balance.
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Another really interesting concept that Tolle talks about is “The Ego’s Search for Wholeness”
“People will often enter into a compulsive pursuit of ego-gratification and things to identify with in order to fill this hole they feel within. So they strive after possessions, money, success, power, recognition, or a special relationship, basically so that they can feel better about themselves, feel more complete. But, even when they attain all these things, they soon find that the hole is still there, that it is bottomless.”
“As long as the egoic mind is running your life, you cannot truly be at ease; you cannot be at peace or fulfilled except for brief intervals when you obtained what you wanted, when a craving has just been fulfilled. Since the ego is a derived sense of self, it needs to identify with external things. It needs to be both defended and fed constantly. The most common ego identifications have to do with possessions, the work you do, social status and recognition, knowledge and education, physical appearance, special abilities, relationships, personal and family history, belief systems, and often also political, nationalistic, racial, religious, and other collective identifications. None of these is you.”
This part of the book completely made sense to me. What Tolle is saying, is that nothing external can make you complete. People spend their entire lives trying to ACHIEVE certain things — an expensive house, a lot of money, a beautiful girlfriend / a rich boyfriend — in hopes that they will finally find their happiness. But, they’re only doing it to meet a certain NEED that they have or to fill up that emptiness inside of them.
The other segment of the quote from Tolle is how people use these external sources to define WHO THEY ARE and their IDENTITY. But, if you base your sense of self on these external factors, you have no control. What would happen if one day you lost your job, your spouse, or become old and lose your physical appearance? What would happen to your confidence?
Those material things will always come and go… but it’s WHO YOU ARE is what you get to keep.
I kept adding post on so many different parts of the book, because I found the passages were so pure gold… 🙂
Oh….what’s more! He talks a bit about relationships which I also found interesting.
“If you cannot be at ease with yourself when you are alone, you will seek a relationship to cover up your unease. You can be sure that the unease will then reappear in some other form within the relationship, and you will probably hold your partner responsible for it. All you really need to do is accept the moment fully. You are then at ease in the here and now and at ease with yourself.”
Again, Tolle talks about how a relationship will not make you fulfilled and how most people jump into them due to insecurity and loneliness. If you find yourself needy and longing for a companion, then I’d suggest making a commitment to yourself to be single for a certain period of time so that a relationship isn’t an option. When you learn to become fulfilled and comfortable alone and with who you are, you will instantly become more attractive to everyone. It’s because you’re already ABUNDANT emotionally.
The LAST idea that I will mention that Tolle talks about what holds people back from changing and transforming their lives.
“The mind, conditioned as it is by the past, always seeks to re-create what it knows and is familiar with. Even if it is painful, at least it is familiar. The mind always adheres to the known. The unknown is dangerous because it has no control over it. That’s why the mind dislikes and ignores the present moment.”
I think this is one of the primary reasons why people will never change or become the best they can be. This is what limits them from extreme growth and the ability to step outside their comfort zone..
OK, I’m going to end things here, so that this post doesn’t get too long and out of control (or it does already? :p)
Of course no summary like this can do any sort of justice to the full power of Tolle’s message, especially the eloquence and strength of his words, and the fact that he writes in such a way that the real underlying message is received more on an intuitive level than a conscious one. So this should act as an introduction to urge YOU to read “The Power of NOW” in full. Simply click here to download “The Power of NOW” Audio Book torrent or here to download “The Power of Now” E-Book.
IT IS a remarkable book. No wonder Oprah raves about him!
ps. Especially THANKS to my admirable boss for recommending this marvelous book!
especially dedicated to R***
For no matter how you look at it, life is NOT fair. It never was, still isn’t and never will be.
Even Bill Gates said so: Life is not fair, get used to it!
Life is all about survival. And survival is all about competition. Life is a competition by design and we were not all created with an equal opportunity to compete in the first place.
I’ve come to the realization that life is like a game of Poker. You were either born with a really good hand, born with just enough to possibly bluff your way to the winnings, or born with a terrible hand thus having to fold early. While the game of Poker is intrinsically unfair, at least you get a second round.
The game of life, however, is not so forgiving..
Because of genetics, some people will be better at that than others – and that is the frightening reality. When you consider all the people in the world, you have to consider not only genetics, but the environment that factors into what makes these people the way they are. Because of these two factors, there will be people in the world that are genetically predisposed to having a really hard time at life, like when:
When you weren’t born fair skinned
There is this massive cultural stigma that attached to being dark skinned. The harsh reality is that even well meaning dark skinned people have to either jump through hoops to prove their worth to the people who have already doomed them to failure, or be good at playing football (or other sport) to win over the respect of the rest of the world. Anyway you look at it, black people people are damned one way or another. Life’s not fair.
When you weren’t born genius
Being educated does not correlate with being smart. There are millions of people in the world who have the highest levels of education and are broke. Then again, there is a far smaller number of people who have a natural talent for making money who are comparatively uneducated. They were born with a gift, which you don’t have it, yet! I know that wasn’t pleasant to hear, but life’s not fair.
When you weren’t born beautiful
Pretty people were born lucky. That is the hard cold truth. People like pretty people even when they’re rotten. Unattractive folks by comparison seem to have more natural enemies, especially if they don’t have a sweet personality or a brilliant mind, or some other asset to balance out the aesthetic deficit.
Beautiful people are talented just by being beautiful. In some cases they can make it in life just for having a pretty face. People tend to forgive the fact that their other assets aren’t so great when looking at an incidence of genetic poetry. It is only a pity that such things only last while they’re young.
If you weren’t born beautiful however, then it is hoped that there is some other talent hidden away in your DNA that will save your soul. The sad thing is that many people were born in this position and have ultimately lived a relatively meaningless life and have died having contributed nothing to humanity other than statistics. See, life’s not fair..
When you weren’t born talented
There is a select, very small set of human beings that were born with remarkable talent. They make up a very tiny percentage of the human population and are obviously at the far end of the Bell Curve of human intellect and genius. Their very existence is proof that inequality is real and again, life’s not fair.
When you weren’t born rich
Being born poor is one thing. Being born poor with positively no means of escape is a horrifying realization that only turns the people afflicted to what is often the only available source of escape: Evil. And thus how poverty becomes a crime. Don’t blame them too much. Life’s just not fair for them.
Umm…. Has it seep into your sub-conscious?
Get used to it! Life is damn unfair…. Nobody ever said that life would be fair. We were never promised a fair life. We were never promised a great life. In fact we were never promised anything at all.
Life isn’t fair, life just is.
As I am told by the world, when ‘life just is’ how ‘it is’, life gives you another two choices:
1. Accept it
or
2. Fight it
Or said another way, you can be happy or you can be miserable. Because in order to be happy-you must accept, for the moment, exactly the way life is and exactly the way life isn’t. Give up the fight, and stop wishing it were some other way. And in the space of acceptance, inside of surrender to what is, look another way and be grateful.
Yeah…anyway, I’m grateful for the green trees and blue skies. Grateful for sharing laughter with family, friends, and colleagues. Grateful for all the experiences that have made me into the kind of person I am today, and for people who are journeying with me….
Let’s end it here. Life is damn unfair, but be happy anyway…
I thought I finally received a break,
only to see the sun fall.
Stomach aching and curling,
as morning comes without notice.
But then the owls hooted
The coyotes barked
The rain came pouring
The moon eclipsed
The night was blackened
I wished it was day